Perfection …

I wanted to share how I felt today.

Even though it’s messy.

When you’re doing chores with toddlers … perfection isn’t something you should be aiming for …

But I have the deep-seated ingrown feeling in me that everything I do must be perfect. At all times.

That holds me back. A lot.

Because if I can’t do it perfectly … I’d rather not do it at all.

In my brain, everything must be in order.

If I can’t put it in order - forget about it.

I’d rather not do it.

I am trying really hard to change that.

Starting this farm is one of the hardest things we have ever done.

Some days I want to quit.

However, they say never quit on a bad day.

Wait for a good day.

Then on the good days I never want to quit.

So, they say, keep going.

So we keep going.

Strangely it’s kind of like childbirth in some ways.

I birthed 5 babies in the last 16 years.

There were always points during the process when I wanted to quit. But I didn’t quit.

(Kind of couldn’t. HAHAHAHAHA)

But at the end there was always a gift.

An irreplaceable Gift!

Of course our farm isn’t anywhere NEAR as valuable as our children.

However, building it is kind of like a labor.

And right now we are in the thick of the labor pains.

But I choose to believe there’s a gift on the other side of all this labor.

This farm is our decades old dream and we continue to pray God sends the people to us that are meant to come.

We continue to labor and make mistakes and have successes.

You are only a failure if you don’t get back up and try again.

Thanks to an old friend, today I found out I was successful at creating Homemade Sauerkraut!!!

And my garlic is successfully fermenting also!

Small wins - remember the bigger picture when things are rough. Everything doesn’t have to be perfect.

A (short) God Story:

In 2014 Bart and I built a beautiful cedar table (still in Texas - still not finished - but that’s another story, it will be here one day) from a whole cedar log we had milled.

We ended up with some leftover pieces of wood.

They were short and at the time I thought not really good for anything. Or anything I could think of anyway.

But we saved them. Because of course we did.

They travelled from Mississippi to Texas with us and then here to Tennessee in the summer of 2021.

… And this week we installed those leftover pieces in the bathroom of our little 300 sq ft cabin …

Judge for yourself if you think the way they fit beside our little (curved) 32” shower is miraculous or not …

This is the point I want to make …

We had ZERO idea what we would use that leftover wood for 9 years ago in Mississippi in 2014.

But God knew.

God so often shows us things that usually blow my mind (though not my husband’s!) in His Time, not ours.

Keep watching and waiting for new and amazing things to show up in everyday ways.

God is Perfection.

We are still striving.

We covet and sincerely appreciate your support as we continue on this impossible (without God) adventure of ours!

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